There are four things that are killers of potential," Louisville coach Rick Pitino said. "One is drugs. Two is alcohol. Three is disrespecting women, and four is a lack of humility. You will never reach your potential if you think you've arrived before you have."
Now thats real!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Part of deconstructing me....
Well we had to do this work in my Litterary perspectives class in which we chose a style of writing and wrote a paper that way. I chose to do a confessional in which I basically deconstructed my mind, myself, spoke in the form of my conscience....well that is if you care here it goes....
Dear John or JB what ever you like to be called,
Hello this is your inside; this is who really knows you better than anyone else. I am the being that is inside of you, the one that feeds you hunger and motivation to accomplish things in your everyday life. I am the one who wakes you up on a daily basis at 5:30am to get on the OCTA bus and ride an hour and twenty minutes to school. I am the thing inside of you that keeps you from quitting on school when it’s tough. I’m the one that makes you want to receive your degree. I am the one that arouses you to love God, your family, basketball, music and beautiful women. I am you, I am beyond you, I am better than you, I am the truth. I am the one that makes you love nice clothes, shoes and music. I am the thing that sparks that pushes you through tough basketball workouts. I am the catalyst that makes you lift weights for a hour or two, do drills on the court for two to three hours when know one else wants to do it with you. I am the driving force that wants you to a professional athlete. Not because you want the fame and money but because you love basketball and because we both know that you can go above and beyond the average that is societies standard. We both know you would not mind the money or fame but you want it for all the right reasons. I am the one that keeps you motivated that when a Coach at school disappoint you that you will continue you persevere through the difficulties and accomplish your goal of playing basketball for a living. Through think and thin I am the inspiring force in you that won’t let you quit. I will continue to force you to not me normal but to be spectacular in the world. I will keep making you want to obtain what seems to be obtainable for the average person. I am the shield made of Teflon, Kevlar, and what ever other impeccable force or detouring thing to stop hatred or slander from people telling you what you can and can’t do. Could you imagine having family not believe in you? Close friends? Asking you, “what are you trying to continue on this route, this basketball isn’t going to be there forever” Our response emphatically, “Fuck you”. I am the reminder like a alarm clock telling you what your Mother has told you since you were a little boy, “know one can tell you what you can’t do, if you put your mind and heart into it you can do whatever you want. Do not let anyone stop you from doing what you want to do and accomplishing your goals.” And you and I believe it, hell we still do. That was meant for when you were a little boy, like when you say, “I want to be a fireman! Or an Astronaut, or no no no maybe a Scientist!” But we still embody the view and think about it day in and day out.
I am the thing that helps you get through the difficulty of life. We talk all the time, you don’t remember? Just recently when sat down and spoke about where you life really is and where you want it to be. We did agree that things have not worked out the way that you have wanted; we did agree that some situations are self inflicted. Other situations are inevitable, some people like you some people don’t and like Coach Dennis Kane taught you, “there are only two things you can control, what you say and what you do.” So that is why the both of us do not stress too much about the inevitable. You and I have an understanding that through thick and thin, rich or poorer, death do we part, we will never quit on each other, or anyone else or ourselves. Wait, isn’t each other and ourselves the same thing? Not quite sure lets continue….
I am the one that reminds you on a daily basis that you have one of the best Mothers on earth. I wouldn’t doubt if she is the THE best. She’s the only person that has only been there for you all of your life other than God. It’s not the financial aspect that she helps you with that matters, it’s not the fact that she does things for you and your brothers that many parents don’t do. It’s the fact that she has a heart the size of the world. I’m pretty sure you can remember when you were around 3 years old and it was just you and her when your parents were not together. You two were inseparable, back when things were difficult for her. You two had to ride public transportation for some odd minutes or hours to be where ever you needed to be. In Erie, Pennsylvania you two would bundle up in your snow clothes and ride the bus and go where ever made you happy. This was a time in your life where you had no worries, no intuition. This is the time that you two developed your relationship as best friends. But I am pretty sure you know this because if I know it you know it. To this day you know that she will still do anything for you and vice versa. Remember in 2006, when your Great Aunt in Philadelphia went to a better place? She could not afford to buy a plane ticket and your step father was not willing to help her get one, (don’t get mad because he is a selfish bastard). You then made one of the most unselfish moves you have ever made in your life. You just received a three thousand dollar financial aid check and you bought her plane ticket, paid her phone bill and gave her money to have while she was in Philadelphia. Wow, I do not want to be arrogant but I commend you, I mean myself, ah hell you know what I mean. Your eyes are probably filling full of tears as we speak. You know what those tears are full of? Love, you think you don’t know what love feels like? That’s what love is, the drops of love are running down your face right now. Not out of sadness always out of happiness. It is a extremely great feeling, love, the love of your mother is not measurable and vise versa.
Now your father, your biological father on the other hand is a very odd man. You and I would think that he would have compassion for his son, his first child. After he had made mistakes throughout your lifetime but, he is who he is. Let me tell you a little story of what I think, after he and your mother split up through all the trials and tribulations with child support through thick and thin he knows that he made a mistake creating you. I think he is just too selfish to care about another being, he can’t be too close to another being or maybe he doesn’t want to have the responsibility of another person. But you and I both know that right? I know that he is troubled, why after years of not speaking to you abuse you when you lived with him? You were a simple child right? You made little childish mistakes, lose your keys, don’t clean up your mess, forget to do a chore. I am the one that was there in your mid and heart when you went through this torment. I am the one that influenced you to get a book from the school library everyday and read it. I am the force that made you read a book a day, to not come out of your room. I feel that I saved you. I don’t think there was a reason for him to beat you up and throw you around like its nothing. Like his form of discipline was the right thing to do. We both do agree that a little spanking does not hurt anyone it helps you gain discipline so that you don’t get them again or at least you minimize them. But John, excuse me JB is it warranted to get bloody noses, black eyes, gashes from a belt on your stomach? I think not, I am the one that kept you quiet when you were young because you were afraid of him but I am also the thing that helped you fight through this mental and physical anguish. Now once again John you are probably crying while reading this. I think its okay, and obviously you do too. Situations like this is an example of the reason why you are who you are. I think this is why you try to treat people well and like you would like to be treated because you feel like you have been to the deep dark floor of abyss and wouldn’t wish it again your worst enemy. But hey that’s what I like you sport you’re a tough cookie.
Through think and think John or JB or whatever the hell you call yourself just remember with all of the things that we have just discussed that God is with you. He is your savior and he will guide you through this hostile thing we call life. Wait, I just realized something, who am I, I mean you talking to? You’re a wild man, your talking to yourself! Well hey I’m listening you, so is the Lord so expel any other kind of confessional issues you have anytime we are hear for you.
Dear John or JB what ever you like to be called,
Hello this is your inside; this is who really knows you better than anyone else. I am the being that is inside of you, the one that feeds you hunger and motivation to accomplish things in your everyday life. I am the one who wakes you up on a daily basis at 5:30am to get on the OCTA bus and ride an hour and twenty minutes to school. I am the thing inside of you that keeps you from quitting on school when it’s tough. I’m the one that makes you want to receive your degree. I am the one that arouses you to love God, your family, basketball, music and beautiful women. I am you, I am beyond you, I am better than you, I am the truth. I am the one that makes you love nice clothes, shoes and music. I am the thing that sparks that pushes you through tough basketball workouts. I am the catalyst that makes you lift weights for a hour or two, do drills on the court for two to three hours when know one else wants to do it with you. I am the driving force that wants you to a professional athlete. Not because you want the fame and money but because you love basketball and because we both know that you can go above and beyond the average that is societies standard. We both know you would not mind the money or fame but you want it for all the right reasons. I am the one that keeps you motivated that when a Coach at school disappoint you that you will continue you persevere through the difficulties and accomplish your goal of playing basketball for a living. Through think and thin I am the inspiring force in you that won’t let you quit. I will continue to force you to not me normal but to be spectacular in the world. I will keep making you want to obtain what seems to be obtainable for the average person. I am the shield made of Teflon, Kevlar, and what ever other impeccable force or detouring thing to stop hatred or slander from people telling you what you can and can’t do. Could you imagine having family not believe in you? Close friends? Asking you, “what are you trying to continue on this route, this basketball isn’t going to be there forever” Our response emphatically, “Fuck you”. I am the reminder like a alarm clock telling you what your Mother has told you since you were a little boy, “know one can tell you what you can’t do, if you put your mind and heart into it you can do whatever you want. Do not let anyone stop you from doing what you want to do and accomplishing your goals.” And you and I believe it, hell we still do. That was meant for when you were a little boy, like when you say, “I want to be a fireman! Or an Astronaut, or no no no maybe a Scientist!” But we still embody the view and think about it day in and day out.
I am the thing that helps you get through the difficulty of life. We talk all the time, you don’t remember? Just recently when sat down and spoke about where you life really is and where you want it to be. We did agree that things have not worked out the way that you have wanted; we did agree that some situations are self inflicted. Other situations are inevitable, some people like you some people don’t and like Coach Dennis Kane taught you, “there are only two things you can control, what you say and what you do.” So that is why the both of us do not stress too much about the inevitable. You and I have an understanding that through thick and thin, rich or poorer, death do we part, we will never quit on each other, or anyone else or ourselves. Wait, isn’t each other and ourselves the same thing? Not quite sure lets continue….
I am the one that reminds you on a daily basis that you have one of the best Mothers on earth. I wouldn’t doubt if she is the THE best. She’s the only person that has only been there for you all of your life other than God. It’s not the financial aspect that she helps you with that matters, it’s not the fact that she does things for you and your brothers that many parents don’t do. It’s the fact that she has a heart the size of the world. I’m pretty sure you can remember when you were around 3 years old and it was just you and her when your parents were not together. You two were inseparable, back when things were difficult for her. You two had to ride public transportation for some odd minutes or hours to be where ever you needed to be. In Erie, Pennsylvania you two would bundle up in your snow clothes and ride the bus and go where ever made you happy. This was a time in your life where you had no worries, no intuition. This is the time that you two developed your relationship as best friends. But I am pretty sure you know this because if I know it you know it. To this day you know that she will still do anything for you and vice versa. Remember in 2006, when your Great Aunt in Philadelphia went to a better place? She could not afford to buy a plane ticket and your step father was not willing to help her get one, (don’t get mad because he is a selfish bastard). You then made one of the most unselfish moves you have ever made in your life. You just received a three thousand dollar financial aid check and you bought her plane ticket, paid her phone bill and gave her money to have while she was in Philadelphia. Wow, I do not want to be arrogant but I commend you, I mean myself, ah hell you know what I mean. Your eyes are probably filling full of tears as we speak. You know what those tears are full of? Love, you think you don’t know what love feels like? That’s what love is, the drops of love are running down your face right now. Not out of sadness always out of happiness. It is a extremely great feeling, love, the love of your mother is not measurable and vise versa.
Now your father, your biological father on the other hand is a very odd man. You and I would think that he would have compassion for his son, his first child. After he had made mistakes throughout your lifetime but, he is who he is. Let me tell you a little story of what I think, after he and your mother split up through all the trials and tribulations with child support through thick and thin he knows that he made a mistake creating you. I think he is just too selfish to care about another being, he can’t be too close to another being or maybe he doesn’t want to have the responsibility of another person. But you and I both know that right? I know that he is troubled, why after years of not speaking to you abuse you when you lived with him? You were a simple child right? You made little childish mistakes, lose your keys, don’t clean up your mess, forget to do a chore. I am the one that was there in your mid and heart when you went through this torment. I am the one that influenced you to get a book from the school library everyday and read it. I am the force that made you read a book a day, to not come out of your room. I feel that I saved you. I don’t think there was a reason for him to beat you up and throw you around like its nothing. Like his form of discipline was the right thing to do. We both do agree that a little spanking does not hurt anyone it helps you gain discipline so that you don’t get them again or at least you minimize them. But John, excuse me JB is it warranted to get bloody noses, black eyes, gashes from a belt on your stomach? I think not, I am the one that kept you quiet when you were young because you were afraid of him but I am also the thing that helped you fight through this mental and physical anguish. Now once again John you are probably crying while reading this. I think its okay, and obviously you do too. Situations like this is an example of the reason why you are who you are. I think this is why you try to treat people well and like you would like to be treated because you feel like you have been to the deep dark floor of abyss and wouldn’t wish it again your worst enemy. But hey that’s what I like you sport you’re a tough cookie.
Through think and think John or JB or whatever the hell you call yourself just remember with all of the things that we have just discussed that God is with you. He is your savior and he will guide you through this hostile thing we call life. Wait, I just realized something, who am I, I mean you talking to? You’re a wild man, your talking to yourself! Well hey I’m listening you, so is the Lord so expel any other kind of confessional issues you have anytime we are hear for you.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
My first day
I havent really thought of anything to deconstruct thus far today but throughout the day I ll make notes and come back and post them lol. Until then talk to you later.
JB
JB
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